walao,怎么搞最近超级情绪化

walao,walao,walao!!!
最近这几天，或者说从十一月开始，
做事从来没有那么顺心过，
那些都是小事，我知道，
只是还是很不爽，
可能是大考症候群，
很多人很看好我，
我也希望有你们所想的一半，
但是自己的实力，究竟还是自己比较清楚，
我并没有这个能力，
我那么的烂，
一直以为通过努力就可以弥补我的不足，
但是，并不是所有东西努力的就会有成果，
再说，我不是一个能一直持续努力不会累的人，
很多人都认为，
我是个努力的女孩，
我知道，我不是。。。
不要一直赞我，我会有压力～

I'm ugly and I know

i hate myself,
my face like shit,
i dun understand the god why created a cacat person just as me,
maybe I'm the one of the failure creation of god,
and my only mission is to let others make compare,
and show them how wonderful they are....
ahix~ i starting to hate myself.
 =`(

the ugliest

xiuling 

contradiction

finally i got some breath to update my blog,

recently i was busy with the my society thingy and nevertheless is my SPM,

i got back some of the trial paper,

hopefully, the result is quite ok to me, but the Science result is a little disappointed

but however i was just finished a set of science paper yesterday,

and luckily i grabbed a little bit confident from there~=)

i wish i can achieve the target that i have gave to myself....

and for some of my friends who really try so hard for the SPM i wish u luck...

majority of u feel that I'm getting over stress to this certificate,

some do understand me please give me some moral support,

but some do not please don't blame me or even backstair me at the back,

maybe i'm sensitive? i hope so....

I know i'm too care of my result, i would like to change but i can't,

You all dunno I am having what kind of relative there,

You all dunno some words that they've spoke is really harsh and hurt my feeling,

I just like the others, I like to eat, I like to hang out with my dearest friends, I like to chui shui with my friends after school until late evening...AND I WANT TO ENJOY MY SWEET 17

But I have to controlled myself , because of them.... 

blah blah blah.

meanwhile, i scare to lose my friend and my school life

sigh

发疯

刚才简直就是气到想要哭了，
这种就叫做朋友，组员吗？
从刚开始担心车子没位坐，
叫爸爸去借部七人车子结果给他骂了一顿～
我为了把了100块的饥饿三十也给放弃了
结果现在，就是在出发前一天，
只有两个人去吧了～
我知道我很烂，组长当不好，
我也承认我并没有很尽力，
但是，这就是你们报复我的方法吗？
啊～我真的很想哭，
那种挫败感～

我真的想骂，吴秀玲，你真的是个废材！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

芷蕊，谢谢你，你的坚持真的让我很感动

Something wrong with me recently

These few days, or few weeks,
me myself is stay in a humorsome situation~
What's Wrong with me
sorry i don't really know about it,
maybe i unable to cope with the changes---> lonely and friendless?
maybe influence by menstrual, instability of hormone secretion?
or maybe i too tension on my study~hmmm maybe

sorry,
i really hurt you all,
sorry i keep murmuring to all of you,
I really dunno wad happen to me,
now happy, now sad,
i dunno~
i think i going to be crazy
whoever i hurt before,
I would like to draw your attention here,
I'M SO SORRY TO ALL OF YOU

Desmond,
Thank you for always be my side,
sorry dear i know i hurt u deeply today,
I really don't want to see your reddish eyes hereafter,
I feel so guilty to you,
you so love me, you did all for me, you sacrificed your freedom, your time and so so on for me~
 but what I did is just hurt you and hurt you and hurt you,
really so heart sore when i see your reddish eyes,
really so heart sore when you are choke with sobs
in your eyes, full of tear but never drop,
I know you are trying to be tough in front me,
Sorry
I didn't act my role well,
I suppose to bring you happiness but not sad,
I suppose to let you laugh instead of crying,
dear i really so so so sorry,
nevertheless I love you

dfghjk

有时候，觉得自己什么都不是，
我得到很多，
也失去很多，
不是我不要去经营，
我只是不想把自己的想法，
强硬加给别人，
我不懂，
我错什么？
这是我的性格，
如果你觉得我变了的话
我只能说你从来没有了解我，
我笑并不代表我真的笑了，
哭了，也许是真正的解脱，
我什么都不是，
我是多余的。。。

speechless

I deleted someone i really hate,
actually i had the thought want to recover our broken friendship,
because so hard we only become best friends,
3 and more years really not easy to pass,
but once i read his blog,
all thought was gone on my mind,
and I regret to treated him as my trusted friend